self portrait for future reference

First, a few good words from women i like : 

“And by the way, everything in life is writable about if you have the outgoing guts to do it, and the imagination to improvise. The worst enemy to creativity is self-doubt.” 
― Sylvia Plath, The Unabridged Journals of Sylvia Plath


“I can only note that the past is beautiful because one never realises an emotion at the time. It expands later, and thus we don't have complete emotions about the present, only about the past.” 
― Virginia Woolf

and now, back to the list : 

• i am uptight 
• i am controlling.
• i need lots of affection : physical and emotional.
• i need a certain degree of attention.
• i dont like forced or expected sharing.
• giving wholeheartedly makes me incredibly happy.
• i have very little attention span.
• i care.
• i also couldn't be bothered on so many levels
• cooking makes me joyfull in an insane way : to me, it's a performance 
• i like listening to gossip 
• i dont enjoy overly gossipy people
• i dont like babies 
• i love children 
• i think animals are the greatest things  
• also plants :D 
• the memory of my grandfather is a topic that will make me cry in the matter of 2 seconds 
• family feuds make me cry too 
• i think family is sacred 
• i also think that if your family only makes your life miserable, there is no point in staying : you can always keep loving from a distance 
• i feel somewhat happy with my body 
• any remark about my physic, body and weight can make me go eating-disorder-highway
• i like writing but i know i have no talent at it 
• i am actually quite talentless in general
• i wish i was undoubtedly excellent at something
• i lack the self discipline necessairy to become excellent at something 
• i just had an idea for a comic book writing this list and i screamed / squeaked
  (girl talking describing herself with wholesome background and great visuals behind and inviting the reader to do the same) 
• i always squeak like a horse bitten by a bee when having an idea 
• i am embarrassed about the fact that i shout when having an idea 
• fav local sweets : sablés à la confiture, neqqach. 
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